This year, I'll be turning 21.
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21?!!!!
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NO! It's not that I'm afraid of getting older but I'm afraid of myself in the future. In the next 2 or 3 years, I'll be graduating.
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I have no ambition at all. I have no idea what will I become in the next few years.
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A lawyer? A magistrate? A doctor? A musician?
... ehehe... way too much drama. cross the latter two out.
or... a housewife, maybe??? hehehe
but that kind of ambition pun seems to be hard to come true. why? cuz tadak calon la pulak.
...haish...
I guess I have no field which I'm good at.
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Back in Sekolah, when I joined the Softball team(or other sports), I only managed to be a bench-warmer. So I can't be a sportswoman.
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When it comes to presentations and speaking in front of the people, I'd become a stutter. So, It's hard for me to be a lawyer.
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When it comes to studying, and reading buku ilmiah, I'll sleep or daydream while doing it. So, susah la nak jadi majistret or hakim. hahaha.
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When it comes to cooking or baking, no one dares (including me) to eat what I've cooked or baked. So I can't be Haxira. eh silap. I can't be a baker/cook.
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...haish lagi sekali...
When I was in my primary school, (standard 2, kalau tak silap) I remembered a form given out by my homeroom teacher where I put my top 3 ambitions :
1) Pensyarah----- ( I have no idea what pensyarah was at that time but I was told by my brother that the salary a pensyarah can get is beribu-ribu... so, I decided to become one. tah hapa-hapa)
2) Peguam---- (it was becuz my Abah is a peguam but I didn't really get the idea what a Peguam is at that age. All I knew was he has his own office, he can get there(plus returning home) anytime he wanted to, he had a black briefcase, a black blazer, a black robe, etc... so I wanted to be like him too. Hoho)
3) Detektif---- (pengaruh TV. Fox Mulder plus Dana Scully. -.-!! )
Yes I know they were all based on crappy reasons but at least, when I was 8 years old, I had ambitions, right?
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Now?
2 comments:
i see my name!! i see my name!!
Interesting to know.
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