Nov 6 is my Mak's birthday.
My Mak is my mother.
My mother is my love.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY Makkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I screamed at the payphone with my Mak on the other line. No phone credit weh... got to use payphone instead. Thanx to Riry yang sudi menderma duit syiling.
She laughed sweetly and thanking me with her motherly- that makes me wanna go home- voice.
"Makk... I loooooooovvvvvvveeeeeeeeee you!"
dang! how I wish I can say it to her face to face.
maybe people will be thinking that i'm a pathetic person who just can't express my love n feelings even to my family members. let it be.
that's the truth.
when it comes to the persons i really love and treasure (family members and friends), it feels weird to get my love and feelings for them to be expressed. I feel one kind of cheesiness when it comes to showing my affections. Haha.
*I'd rather put my head on her lap and sleep beside my Mak right after arriving home for school holiday- than saying out loud that I miss and love her
*I'd rather tease my Abah about his 'perut boroi', IT illiteracy and horrible handwriting -than saying out loud that he's the best father in da world and that I'm really proud of him.
*I'd rather kutuk my big brothers to my friends for not being handsome, lousy drivers and all -than saying out loud that I love them and really proud to be their sister.
*I'd rather bully and extort my younger sisters and brother- than saying out loud I really love them and that I can't live without them.
*I'd rather watch my Tok cooking in silence than saying out loud I'm really proud of being her granddaughter and she's da best Tok ever.
*I'd rather ask my Makda so many questions and kutuk Athirah's perut buncit than saying out loud that I'm really glad to have them in the family.
*I'd rather bully my best friends -than saying out loud that I'm thankful to be their friend and I love them so much!
well... that's my problem and that's me. i don't mind what other people will think of me. as long as I love those persons, there's no need to express my affections to them. haha
